1/31/13 3rd week at work

Having numbness n tingly on left arm today. Haven't felt this is a long time. Nurse said my MUGA scan Monday turned out a little lower than 3 months ago but in an ok zone to enjoy today's herceptin treatment. (Waiting for it now) no fever today but still having trouble breathing, coughing. Haven't had lunch yet but not that hungry. In a funk today. Glad I have work to keep me busy. Going to get my night time compression sleeve after work today. Looks like a big ole oven mitt. How am I going to sleep with that!! So sexy looking too. Not!
My biopsy on my uterus was normal! Getting perm cap from root canal treatment on Tuesday. I forgot when my pelvic ultrasound is.
Treatment time!!!

1/13/13

My first week back at work wasn't too bad. Hard to moan n groan and be in arm pain at work when I have friends, supervisors and execs rooting for my recovery. Realize I need to use the squeeze ball more, bring some 1lb weights in to help with the lymphedema swelling. Working 2 days at home was such a big help. Wasn't in a hurry to adjust my breastesess, all day, or put on my compression sleeve.
All weekend I've been dealing with old tooth infection coming back. 800 ibuprofen has been good. Hope to see dentist Tuesday.

Happy new year-1/1/13

Been worn out the past week. Family and friends and myself being sick. It was only a cold but it sure traveled fast. Just rested the past 4 days. Which has been a blessing to rest my weary thoughts as well. I've been Pondering what strengths i have been given this past year. Close friends have been golden to me. I feel those prayers, i do. Listening to other peoples stories of their troubles has helped me a little to think life's not a pity party. I don't need to bring or mean to bring anyone down with me. Sometimes or a lot of times no one understands or is really listening to what I've gone through or what I'm going through. Im becoming my own advocate by listening to others better because most times we interrupt or change the subject on someone and we don't even realize we do it. Makes me want to scream because we are not being the friends we should be. I need to be better as well. I would like to continue counseling as I feel I haven't had time to grieve or get angry. I'm just healing the wounds on the outside! And pretty darn proud of my pain thresh hold if I do say so myself. Need to do or say what's best for me and not care to much about what people think. I've been weak far too long emotionally and I need to not let people walk all over me. Love me unconditionally, with compassion and humor or quit wasting valuable time. I'm on my 2nd chance at life. Join me! Therapist will be proud.

12/29/12

Had the PET scan on Thursday. 30 mins marinating with glucose radiation n 30 mins with my arms held up in the I'm going to jump off the skydive position. Last 3 mins were excruciating n they finally got me out!! Just awaiting results. Monday possibly. I will be so grateful when they call me n tell me, ALL CLEAR. Had a good Christmas. Not long enough in san Diego. I was still coughing but no fever so we went down anyways. Just today I'm feeling much better. May better days lie ahead for all.

12/21/12

Little cough didn't hold me back from spending all day with Linda Linda. She spoiled me by taking me to breakfast, mani n eyebrow wax. Then off to santas village, at her house, so we can have a wrap party. Ribbons and bows were scurried about must've been the spiked egg nog. I wanted more but my little bed was calling me for a visit. Thank you Linda for making me feel like a queen. With NyQuil in belly, I bid all that reads this health and hugs. Night.

12/15/12 my gift of friendship

Was gently wrapped all warm and snug in a cozy place I call MY home. What a gift daniel and I gave ourselves by opening our door to anyone who had time to come by. When Linda and I planned this, I didn't know how I was going to feel but I didn't care. I'm done with chemo. I'm recuperating from my daily 5 week tanning session. I wanted to celebrate. My feet were hurting and knee was swollen but we had a great time with the 15 people that drove through the cold and the rain to eat, drink, karaoke and be merry. We sang fun Christmas songs with and without the mic. Great time. Thank you Linda Linda for the great crab dip, yummy crackers, fantastic home made sweet treats. She found Daniels sweet spot. Love my good days!!!

12/10/12- pix of radiation scar-beware

Dont look at photo below if you cant handle my battle scars. I do need more of that cream. It's awesome!
I Hate crawling in and out of my low 2000 Honda civic. Since i didnt get a raise, i cant get a new car. New goals. Bathroom remodel first. Its been Very painful to bend when my radiation blisters n sunburns r very close and on my mastectomy scar. I'm grateful for the extra time I have to get ready to go somewhere. Socks n shoes r a chore. Putting on camisole and compression sleeve take time. Wait til I go back to work. Put on the prosthetic bra, little make up. Forget the wig n having to do my hair!!! The other stuff will be more important. I need to be comfortable for 10 hours. January 7th is my back to work date with no restrictions. Which arm pillow should i bring hmmm. Pierre jouet, oj and croissants at my desk please. Looking forward to ongoing healing.