4/28/12

House full of friends was what the dr ordered. Shirley came over n brought churches chick for lunch! We walked to the corner n back. More than 9 houses. I made a small goal. I stopped a few times to catch my breath n rest by bouncing phantom boob. Roseanne came n hour later n brought Nations pies, jelly beans n m&ms! So thoughtful. Good visit. During that time Dina Miguel n classy came over. She stopped the ice cream man n we all got an afternoon treat before my walk. Miguel started our laundry adjusted the flowers. Linda came at 6. Daniel made appetizers n we visited. Linda made us dinner!!! My favs of salmon cauliflower asparagus n potatoes, wine, dessert. Was so delicious n sweet of her. Then she asked if I was ready for another treat. She broke out pink socks n lotion n said she's ready to massage my feet!!! R u serious. Who does that?!! Linda, luv ya lots. What an evening!!!

4/27/12

Took Jen to the airport at 10:30am and gave her a greatful send off. Daniel n I went to nicks in san leandro for breakfast with my arm pillow in tow. Didnt care how ridonculous I looked with it there but need to keep it slightly elevated an away from my bod. Keeps the pain away a bit. Hate that numbness n harness that close to me. Daniel went to gym n I walked to pet store to look at kitties n parakeets. I had a ball playing with caged kitties. I felt good still n we caught a movie, 5 yr engagement. Was good. Uncle tri invited us to pho at his house. Oh yeah!!! Took a nap after dinner n went home. Good day n only took 2 800 mg of Motrin

4/26/12

Had a late start in the day. Took a nap then took my first shower! Slowly I disrobed and looked to hide from every mirror in bedroom n bathroom. Got towel n luffa n began what i feared the most, me touching my owie. I gently put the water onto my head trying yo miss my breast completely. I felt fine but terrified none the less. Hair was first, oh yeah. No more oilies. The under arm on right side was hard to do with one hand. Hard to lift up the left arm due to hella soreness n I couldn't feel if I was washing the poor pit because it's still numb. I turned the water off and had a moment of silence. I cleaned the right one and I didn't want to wet the left one as i still have tape over the stitches that I'm scared to reveal to my eyes/my heart. I briefly washed beneath the area, she'd a light tear n finished. Took forever but I gently grabbed a towel n dried myself. I moved the medicine cabinet mirror open so I only see the inside. A few habitual times, I wanted to close it do I can brush my teeth n get ready n I opened it again as I did not want to see myself. I'm not ready. Hubby is awesome and is not weirded out. It's only temporary, he says as he quoted Emer. So I put on real pants, a real blouse and make up to go to Cvs, Starbucks, Macy's, then to dinner with Jen. We had great meals, good laughs n conversation. It was my 4th wedding anniversary n hubby came home at 9pm. He brought whoppers from burger king. I told him I had yummy leftovers for him. He said, babe we had these on our wedding night!!! I was such an ass. We split one as he ate leftovers as well. What a great day!!!

4/26/12

Had a nice FaceTime chat with sissy last night. She's much stronger than I. She didn't hesitate to want to see my owie. Daniel n I showed her n she was so kind n just said wow. I told her I haven't looked. She was surprised but not that much. I'm just dealing with physical pain n not that in tune with emotional pain. I'm eager to take my first shower since surgery but I'm scared.

4/25/12

Celebrated our anniversary a day early. Having Mexican food now. So full now, getting tired. Stages to be known next tues with oncologist. he's glad that we did full mastectomy since it was spreading in 3 areas. 1 cancerous lymp node out of 15!!!! Grabbing food now, I feel good. Chat later. Thanks for being there whoever is reading this. My cell is 5107317022 if ya wanna chat or text. Nap time

4/24/12

Had a good day. Got off couch by myself, Jen washed my hair so good, one of my bosses, Jon walheim, drove from SF to bring us some curry n chic pot pie. So thoughtful of he and erin. Nice visit. Jen and I almost walked to the corner. I need to pace myself to not get too excited n not do too much

4/23/12

Ugh my surgeon. I returned a call from sdi office and they asked same crap on application, last day worked, surgery date. Then they said, oh ok we have that, we r missing dr medical procedure codes. I paused. He paused. I said, do u want me to give u his number? He said no we have it. What a wasted phone call!!!
Feel pretty good today. Taking all my meds. Had/have a few blisters from bed n sitting down. Drainage tubes are good, dr going to remove them weds. Should've done it today cuz not draining as much as they were, only 20cc 12 hrs. Managing pain better. Realizing when to take Vicodin or ibuprofen. I need to not try n do stuff with left hand n not push this recovery thing I hear so much. My meds don't make me as sleepy as I thought. Wish they did. Going to ask doc. Jen made an awesome chicken n veggy fritatta for lunch. With her help too, its getting better to get out of bed and off couch. Shes So thoughtful and helpful to help with the cooking since its a little hard for daniel to cook but he does separately of course, mean pasta, curry, dishes. He gave me the nicest sponge bath. We had a good time giggling. He asked me today if I wanted another. Awwwww
I was trying to nap earlier while he was doing dishes n straightening things up n getting ready to cook pasta n in he comes strolling in bedroom. He quietly says sorry my hands r full n plops down, milk, peanut butter banana Sammy, baked chips n 1 piece of almond royale. He was so happy to
give it to me as I was to receive
it. Looking forward to Dina her mom cookie n Linda tonight.