3/30/12

 not that hungry last night but my tummy was growling on Bart so i had to have something when i got home. Ahh pita chips and spinach dip and OJ. Went to sleep late because I was on uTube looking at inspirational videos and music. I was too excited to sleep to see that people were putting their serious business on blast like that. I'm glad they did. Happy friday to me. can't wait for Angela to get here.

3/28/12

Had a great dinner with Linda. 3 hrs flew by. Realized and admitted that I'm stronger with this disease and I have never said, "why me?" I am blessed they caught it early, surgery is a month later than I expected, which was due to my fluffiness n my posterior. Thank u michelle for that article on, why NOT me" I'm still tired at times. The left one is feeling good today so feel a bit sexy n put on a comfy silky bra instead of sports bra. Treat my girls like the queens that they r! I did have a few cigarettes this week. I'll get back to me eventually.

3/27/12

Last I looked at clock was 1230am. Alarm went off at 6. Felt like I just took a nap! Tossed n turned forever. Thought about little JuJu n how fun hes going to be. We decided that if/when Angela comes to the bay that June would be a good time. Rest a bit, heal a bit, then he n I will heal some more. Can't sleep on my belly on my right side anymore since I can feel it crushing my left lumpy poo. It's annoying me now that I felt it more. Gotta catch train n get my venti

SURGERY DATE!!!!

what a wild and wacky Monday. I have my breast mri appointment for 4/9 at UCSF and surgery is scheduled for 4/17 at Kaiser in Hayward. i'm glad we are getting things rolling, finally but now it's more real than ever. I'm getting a quote from Merry Maids this Friday to get some help on that home front.
I am trying to keep a smile on my face but knowing that there's a problem, and getting to erradicate the problem quickly is part of this FREAKIN FIGHT!

3/23/12

Well I rush home to check the mail for forms of approval so I can schedule MRI, nada. Have they heard of email or faxing? Go green people. Had a major headache tonight in my right temple. Took 500 mg Tylenol n felt a bit better.
Jenn called me earlier and said she's ready to jump on a plane to Cali to work from my house for a week to help me and daniel out. Can't wait to see her. What a generous offer from a co-worker in Jersey. What a great company I work for that has leadership supporting a flex work schedule. I'm Hoping to schedule this stuff ASAP so I can get this shit out of me and I can move on with my life. Amen and pass the chocolate.

3/22/12

Had a good Wednesday. Had a few moments with the tender left one. Put away the laundry, wiped my tears then grabbed a black n pink scarf and made a tube top out of it. Not very flattering but daniel n I felt a photo op was in order. Cheered me up.
Today was a good day too but seems like I dont get enough sleep! Even before lunch/jamba juice I was dragging. Forced myself to go out n walk n shop anyways. I jam home, eager to check the mail for the approval letter from UCSF medical. Venetian in Vegas wants me. Verizon wants to give me a free phone. Ugh no letter yet. It should've made it in the mail and been here by now!!!
I'm eager to ensure this crap hasn't spread. Ready for a nap. Wish my office had a couch.

Breast MRI approved for ucsf

Yay paperwork is coming for me to fill out then schedule breast MRI at ucsf. Eager to get results to ensure it hasn't spread. Scary stuff. Pass the chocolates!!!

3/21/12

I can honestly say that while typing up my blog last night, I sooo wanted a cigarette but I grabbed a piece of chocolate instead. No excuse but one thing at a time. I didn't go to bed until around 1am but woke up at 6am pretty amped about the day. I realize that stress is making my boob hurt. It feels like tingling and pinching in my nipple. I just want to hold it and say, it's gonna be ok but doing that makes it hurt more for longer. I emailed my surgeon to ask WTF. In the meantime, Tylenol and I are going to get along just fine. Had some greasy Crackdonald's this morning as my comfort. I press my iPhone for any updated email from my surgeon for my breast MRI appointment at UCSF. Now on with my day.