10/30/12

Woke up sore, tight and a bit swollen in my hands. Took a water pill n helped a bit. Even though I had my favorite massage last night, my left arm seems to have more fluid built up. Was running errands with daniel All day andy feet were killing me. I was rubbing my arm as often as I can. Finally had to take an ambien and ibuprofen to go to sleep. Going to rest n put my feet up for Halloween.

10/28/12

Congrats SF Giants. World series champs.
Went to gym yesterday with daniel. I'm pretty swollen and sore with my quads, and right forearm. My right leg was tingling today. Starting Scaryation on Tuesday, 5 days a week, for 15 mins a day. Side effects are sunburn and tiredness. All I know. Big part of possible side effect is heart failure. Need all prayers n good thoughts. Gotta figure which outfits to wear this week.

10/24/12

Having a good day so far. Linda did some massaging yesterday and Daniel rubbed my lymphatics around last night really good. I have so much fluid built up n it's hard to reach in certain places. Had a great 2 hr lunch with Erica. Hadn't caught up with her in 25 yrs. saw her at the 10th but lost touch.
I'm chilling now without my cap at Starbucks. Literally chilly but my hat was slipping n I feel good. So pix are below.

10/18/12

Yes one is allowed to go and see family whilst on disability. Seeing the Pham for few weeks was very much needed. Healing long distance is hard but they know I'm getting better and can see what I'm going through. Hard to show weakness in front of people. Have to keep reminding myself that I'm getting treated for cancer and this is not a cold. It's ok that from time to time I'll cancel plans, it's ok to sleep or lie down all day.
The other day I had a moment of weakness. Daniel was wearing his fight like a girl shirt. A lady was looking at him/his shirt looked at me then walked away. Stoic looking. I'm like huh. I looked at daniel then realized what shirt he was wearing and I started to cry. He was wearing a supportive shirt and it reminded me that it was me he was wearing it for. Sooo sucks. This month sucks, pink everywhere reminding me what disease I'm fighting for. I'm sure I'll get over it. My bedroom is pink I'm sure not going to paint anytime soon.
It's a fighting color and it's awareness I know. Can't be selfish when their are other people worse off than me. Ok im off my pedestal now.
Radiation starts 10/30-12/4 on the daily!!! Calgon take me away. I have 1 more merry maids gift card left that I will use shortly. Can't wait to get another lymphatic massage.

10/5/12

Eye twitching n chest twitching are back. Chest twitching was gone for almost a week. Guess dr giving me magnesium didn't work. MUGA scan has been scheduled for 10/15 in the afternoon. Let's get some answers soon. Can't take anymore bad news.

10/4/12

Don't think I've had much salt since I've been down here in so cal but today my feet and my left hand is swollen. Did some walking but I've been in air conditioned places most of this trip. Going to put my feet up and take a water pill tomorrow.

10/1/12

Having a great time in temecula with Angela n daniel. Mom is coming up from san Diego tomorrow. I want to take time with the family before I start radiation this month. It's not scheduled yet. Have to do another MUGA heart study first. It's so hot both my feet r swollen again and I'm wearing my compression sleeve every other day. Need to do arm exercises better because my tricep feels lumpy n swollen.