12/29/12

Had the PET scan on Thursday. 30 mins marinating with glucose radiation n 30 mins with my arms held up in the I'm going to jump off the skydive position. Last 3 mins were excruciating n they finally got me out!! Just awaiting results. Monday possibly. I will be so grateful when they call me n tell me, ALL CLEAR. Had a good Christmas. Not long enough in san Diego. I was still coughing but no fever so we went down anyways. Just today I'm feeling much better. May better days lie ahead for all.

12/21/12

Little cough didn't hold me back from spending all day with Linda Linda. She spoiled me by taking me to breakfast, mani n eyebrow wax. Then off to santas village, at her house, so we can have a wrap party. Ribbons and bows were scurried about must've been the spiked egg nog. I wanted more but my little bed was calling me for a visit. Thank you Linda for making me feel like a queen. With NyQuil in belly, I bid all that reads this health and hugs. Night.

12/15/12 my gift of friendship

Was gently wrapped all warm and snug in a cozy place I call MY home. What a gift daniel and I gave ourselves by opening our door to anyone who had time to come by. When Linda and I planned this, I didn't know how I was going to feel but I didn't care. I'm done with chemo. I'm recuperating from my daily 5 week tanning session. I wanted to celebrate. My feet were hurting and knee was swollen but we had a great time with the 15 people that drove through the cold and the rain to eat, drink, karaoke and be merry. We sang fun Christmas songs with and without the mic. Great time. Thank you Linda Linda for the great crab dip, yummy crackers, fantastic home made sweet treats. She found Daniels sweet spot. Love my good days!!!

12/10/12- pix of radiation scar-beware

Dont look at photo below if you cant handle my battle scars. I do need more of that cream. It's awesome!
I Hate crawling in and out of my low 2000 Honda civic. Since i didnt get a raise, i cant get a new car. New goals. Bathroom remodel first. Its been Very painful to bend when my radiation blisters n sunburns r very close and on my mastectomy scar. I'm grateful for the extra time I have to get ready to go somewhere. Socks n shoes r a chore. Putting on camisole and compression sleeve take time. Wait til I go back to work. Put on the prosthetic bra, little make up. Forget the wig n having to do my hair!!! The other stuff will be more important. I need to be comfortable for 10 hours. January 7th is my back to work date with no restrictions. Which arm pillow should i bring hmmm. Pierre jouet, oj and croissants at my desk please. Looking forward to ongoing healing.

12/6/12 LAST DAY of burning my bacon!!!

Daniel woke up this morning telling me they I've done great! I'm like, all I did was make a pot of coffee but thanks. He saw the bewildered smile and expression on my plump cheeks and said, with your treatments!! He got the biggest hug. How stupid of me not to remember that he went through this with me. He's my shining light. Hard to get down on myself and have a pity party, party of one, when daniel will never walk!! There are worse things to worry about. I can always get another breastesses. Daniel will never get the use of his legs. Except to kick my ass when I'm in that bad place.
9:30am, I head to Linda Linda's to pick her up to head on down to OAK town for my last appointment. She hands me oatmeal cranberry cookies for breakfast and I did not hesitate to gobble gobble.
Was on time for treatment. 30 seconds into treatment, machine stops. They have to reboot computer. Anxiety sets in. Not again! 30 mins later I was gone n got my hugs and a certificate of completion. Went to Nicks in san Leandro for breakfast at noon. Enjoyed watching Linda work from home lol and we caught up and shared stories, sparkling cider, chocolate and a few tears. Thank u sissy for a great day and I will always need u because we all are healing together.

12/2/12

I'm peeling in 2 areas of my chestesess. Right at my scar tissue!! Hard to make right turns without the blister wanting to open. Radiation has been rough. Now that skin is tighter, it's harder to be a scared little kitten n keep her paws up high in the sky. Well that's my visual anyways. It looks so much better n cuter when u see a kitty on its back n put paws up.
Daniel gave me an awesome arm and foot massage tonight. I cheered him on to move deeper into my arm to thrust those lymph nodes through. Amazing how it doesn't feel as heavy in my tricep after he does it. I just hate it when it hits my body/peeling sunburn. Wish I could get a rub down every day.
Luv that man of mine.