1/31/13 3rd week at work

Having numbness n tingly on left arm today. Haven't felt this is a long time. Nurse said my MUGA scan Monday turned out a little lower than 3 months ago but in an ok zone to enjoy today's herceptin treatment. (Waiting for it now) no fever today but still having trouble breathing, coughing. Haven't had lunch yet but not that hungry. In a funk today. Glad I have work to keep me busy. Going to get my night time compression sleeve after work today. Looks like a big ole oven mitt. How am I going to sleep with that!! So sexy looking too. Not!
My biopsy on my uterus was normal! Getting perm cap from root canal treatment on Tuesday. I forgot when my pelvic ultrasound is.
Treatment time!!!

1/13/13

My first week back at work wasn't too bad. Hard to moan n groan and be in arm pain at work when I have friends, supervisors and execs rooting for my recovery. Realize I need to use the squeeze ball more, bring some 1lb weights in to help with the lymphedema swelling. Working 2 days at home was such a big help. Wasn't in a hurry to adjust my breastesess, all day, or put on my compression sleeve.
All weekend I've been dealing with old tooth infection coming back. 800 ibuprofen has been good. Hope to see dentist Tuesday.

Happy new year-1/1/13

Been worn out the past week. Family and friends and myself being sick. It was only a cold but it sure traveled fast. Just rested the past 4 days. Which has been a blessing to rest my weary thoughts as well. I've been Pondering what strengths i have been given this past year. Close friends have been golden to me. I feel those prayers, i do. Listening to other peoples stories of their troubles has helped me a little to think life's not a pity party. I don't need to bring or mean to bring anyone down with me. Sometimes or a lot of times no one understands or is really listening to what I've gone through or what I'm going through. Im becoming my own advocate by listening to others better because most times we interrupt or change the subject on someone and we don't even realize we do it. Makes me want to scream because we are not being the friends we should be. I need to be better as well. I would like to continue counseling as I feel I haven't had time to grieve or get angry. I'm just healing the wounds on the outside! And pretty darn proud of my pain thresh hold if I do say so myself. Need to do or say what's best for me and not care to much about what people think. I've been weak far too long emotionally and I need to not let people walk all over me. Love me unconditionally, with compassion and humor or quit wasting valuable time. I'm on my 2nd chance at life. Join me! Therapist will be proud.