8/29/12

Didn't sleep well at all. My left tricep and above armpit seem to be more swollen/sore in the pm. Self massages work n I tire myself out. Can't wait til the swelling goes down in my feet to wear real shoes.
My mom is on a plane back to san Diego n I miss her already. 10 days wasn't enough. Glad she and I rested together as she was in pain herself. She made Shirley and I arm pit pillows. Pix below. And look!! My hair is growing back!

8/19/12

My heart is overwhelmed! Mom won't let me do nothing n I see her smiling n in pain as well. We stayed in our Jammie's until 5. Aching all over today especially my knees. Small fever of 99.1. I drove a little bit today n my PB (phantom boob) was hurting, stretching. All day my left lymphatic tricep has been hurting. Ambien take me away!!! Love u mommy!

8/18/12

Don't want to do a thang. Water tastes funny but I know I have to drink it. Just rested today then we picked up mom from OAK then went to Mexican food. I was hungry then once food came I wasn't. I got so cold in the restaurant. Went home n curled up in sweats n 2 blankets. Small fever 99.7. When daniel gave me my neuprogen shot I moved. Oh well 4 more shots to go

8/15/12

90 min lymphatic massage, $100 so worth it. No time to do my groin area but I booked 2 hrs next month. Tranquil massage in san Ramon. Hard to find places that know how to do lymphatic massage. Now at Zachary's pizza getting a deep dish on to share with Linda- linda n Daniel. Great friends no judging what I'm eating. I feel pretty good n ready for my walk at 8pm.

8/14/12

Didn't feel like I did that much today but think I did. Went to get measured for wrist sleeve n arm sleeve. Then Went to target n a 5 yr old bday party. My phantom boob feels like it did first few weeks of surgery. Feels like my scar wants to tear again. My wrist n feet n hands are still swollen but I lost 3 lbs, yay. I'm trying to be strong for myself! I dont like to be in pain or feel down. I don't want to bring anyone else down with me. I'm glad/blessed to have such great friends n loving family going down this cancerous road with me. Good thoughts good thoughts

8/2/12

Slept ok. I didn't over do it on food consumption but was hungry. Went to Luckys. Haven't been to store in few weeks. Bought oj, apple juice, bananas, avocado, grapes N other edibles. Lunch was big bowl of honey nut Cheerios. Tasted weird but satisfying. Not too much diareals today but 2.5 days in a row is not fun none the less. Afternoon snack, sliced mild cheddar cheese, Dublinier cheese, dill pickle, few chips n salsa. I paid for it 30 mins later. I'm squeezing my foam Lego as much as I can to keep lymphatic fluids flowing. Can't wait for my lymphatic massage on the 14. Busy appointment week that week. Today certain movements felt like my surgery scar was ripping open. I give it some light rubbing n tenderness n tell mysel it's gonna be ok. Big deal! I now have a great spot to put the remote without falling!!!!!

8/1/12

No one can tell someone how each treatment is n how they will feel. Do research after research n nothing can prepare u for every round of chemo but at least I have done my research n know what to expect. It just sux having no patience for what I'm feeling n not knowing how long it will last. Been feeling such a baby since Sunday but I don't care anymore. I'm a cancer patient, still hard to admit, n I need to be not so hard on myself. For 3 days straight fat gurl has had a hard time swallowing n eating or keeping down any kind of food!! 42 yrs old n not used to this at all. Can't wait to get off this medicine so I can loose the 12 lbs I gained since April. If I start watching yoga channel n doing it, maybe I'll loose it.