5/10/11

Trying to get comfy but able to sleep a bit more on right side. Walked to dr appointment then treated myself to Carl's jr. Time to myself. I over did it a bit. Back hurt arm a bit sore but walked more than I have!! Took 2 hr nap! Alison picked me up n we went for some beef!! Drove to 2 diff stores to get brownies n ice cream to watch Idol at 8. Then stayed up til midnight to watch The Way. Was excellent. Great day all around. Merry maids. Coming Friday to get ready for inlaws saturday

5/9/12

Had a good day. Went to sleep around midnight-ish, woke up at 7am, 9am but crawled out of bed at 10!!! Took some Vicodin last night. Don't think I can wait to see surgeon next weds. Need him to help me with this bruising on my tricep. I know it's only been 3 weeks but lymph edema is no joke. No cure. It can act up at anytime. Now to the good stuff!!! Linda went with me to marzels in Pleasanton where they speciAlize in breast cancer stuff. Hats, wigs, camisoles, swimsuits. I tried on a few camisoles n cried when I found the one that made me feel great. I didn't know if it was a good cry or a bad one. Once Linda held my shoulders from behind n gave me a little squeeze and didn't say a word, I felt it was cry of relief. I looked n felt normal. I had to strut. Had a little photoshoot with my new rack, grabbed a cute little had n snapped a few more. Went home with what I had tried on. Zipped up front white cami that has aloe in it for 24 washes. The other one will be ready next week. It's 5 weeks to early for a bra but I don't care. I wish I was told sooner about the post mastectomy cami but I'm very happy now.

5/5/12

Went to san leandro marina for a little walk. Went to AW rootbeer to get a float first then walk it off. Couldn't walk much more, didn't want to over do it. Then went to go have yummy Mexican food for early dinner. Took a nap at 6pm!! So sweet, daniel read to me a bit of snow white then dozed off. Tape is slowly coming off by itself. No appointments this week. Going to set up appointment at nordies for bra n camisoles. Can't wait. Thanks for reading.

5/4/12

Couldn't sleep in. Toss n turn as usual. On my back, not comfy, on my right side, slightly comfy. Being alive to feel these feelings, priceless. Dad helped me get my car tuned up/smog/timing belt n water pump. We went to breakfast, with pillow under pit. Oh well at least I wasn't going to go numb in public. Tape still hasn't fallen off stitches yet. Even though surgeon said we can take them off weds. I'm still numb in certain areas of my arm/pit. Hard as well. He will give me exercises on 5/16. Stupid me I still try n clear table with left hand or try n bathe left handed. Took injection infraction test today. It read about 58% but the surgeon or oncologist will confirm soon. Angela said over 55 is good. Weird test and I'm a hard to stick person so of course it hurt. Look up MUGA test n u will understand what/why I'm doing this. I don't quite have a reach but ive been able to put on n take off whife beaters but my right boob is aching for a bra. Going to nordies in Ptown soon to check out fitted cami's n prosthetics. Thanks for listening out there. Got a gift n card from louise today. So freaking thoughtful. I do miss my coworkers!! Okok and chatting it up with my execs too!!

5/3/12

Ok here it goes, this Friday I do a MUGA test. To check my heart function to ensure it can take the chemo meds. 5/15 2pm they are putting iv port in my chest, 5/16 I have 12pm follow up appointment with surgeon, 5/23 I do pre bloodwork for chemo. 5/24 10am start chemo. Noooo I'm not scared--- again!!!! I'm trying to nap, not working with this on my mind

5/2/12

Still in jammies at 8pm. Sang karaoke or watch a lot while dad sang. Had a ball. Tried to lay down n rest n just couldn't. No position was comfy. Think maybe I sat up alot on the couch today. Put alot of pressure on my owie. Still haven't taken the tape off stitches. Some have come off naturally n that's ok. Dr said we can start removing tape today but it doesn't look like or feel like it wants to come off. Oh well. No hurry to me. It's only been 15 days. Tina had Indian food delivered to us tonight. I didn't eat that much but was sooo good. Been loving the carbs lately, cereal, toast, bread bread!!! Can't do coffee m chemo!!! I'm so bummed!!! I better work from home while I'm on chemo for a while. Work look out!! Ready for pain pill n melatonin. Need to sleep/rest even though I'm not left the house.

5/1/12 meeting Dr. Shek-Oncologist

did some retail therapy this afternoon at Walmart to purchase some more short sleeved, button down shirts. they had more that I liked than 3 weeks ago. hmmm.
3:10pm met Dr. Shek. met with him for 2 hours with Daniel and my Dad. He told me that I had level 3/3 of agressive breast cancer but at stage 2 cancer. yes we caught it early but there were 3 lumps in the breast and it spread to 1/15 lymp nodes. he wants to start chemo (TCH) https://www.navigatingcancer.com/chemotherapy_treatments/tch-docetaxel-carboplatin-trastuzumab-breast
1 year then look at radiation after if needed. he wants to start right away like on 5/24. i have an appointment with the surgeon on 5/16, day after my 42nd b-day, to see how well i'm healing and give me some PT exercises. if he feels i'm healed at 100% then he'll give the go ahead for 5/24 chemo port instead of IV since i'm a bad stick with IV's. big possibility that the chemo will effect fertility. i'm going to be 42 and we don't have children at this time anyways. might freeze some eggs, might adopt a child or a dog:)... focus on me and me alone. i'm eager to live a long and healthier life.