4/26/12

Had a late start in the day. Took a nap then took my first shower! Slowly I disrobed and looked to hide from every mirror in bedroom n bathroom. Got towel n luffa n began what i feared the most, me touching my owie. I gently put the water onto my head trying yo miss my breast completely. I felt fine but terrified none the less. Hair was first, oh yeah. No more oilies. The under arm on right side was hard to do with one hand. Hard to lift up the left arm due to hella soreness n I couldn't feel if I was washing the poor pit because it's still numb. I turned the water off and had a moment of silence. I cleaned the right one and I didn't want to wet the left one as i still have tape over the stitches that I'm scared to reveal to my eyes/my heart. I briefly washed beneath the area, she'd a light tear n finished. Took forever but I gently grabbed a towel n dried myself. I moved the medicine cabinet mirror open so I only see the inside. A few habitual times, I wanted to close it do I can brush my teeth n get ready n I opened it again as I did not want to see myself. I'm not ready. Hubby is awesome and is not weirded out. It's only temporary, he says as he quoted Emer. So I put on real pants, a real blouse and make up to go to Cvs, Starbucks, Macy's, then to dinner with Jen. We had great meals, good laughs n conversation. It was my 4th wedding anniversary n hubby came home at 9pm. He brought whoppers from burger king. I told him I had yummy leftovers for him. He said, babe we had these on our wedding night!!! I was such an ass. We split one as he ate leftovers as well. What a great day!!!